Hidden Love (prologue)

It was a Monday morning and my classes are over. I entered the elevator to go down to have lunch with my friends at the foodcourt in our school. I'm actually alone in the elevator and I was listening to Super Junior's Believe.

Suddenly it opened in the 6th floor and then out of the blue, Seungho entered the elevator. He had been my crush for a long time and it was actually the first time that we are alone. He knew that I admired him so much, thanks to my friends. Awkwardness engulfed the elevator. Silence was so defeaning when suddenly the elevator stopped!!! It didn't take long for us to notice that we are stranded in a dark elevator. I am a claustrophobic and I am really scared of enclosed spaces so my knees are going weak.

Seungho noticed it.

MY LIVEJOURNAL 

i don't know how i can keep up with two blogs.

but i'll manage. :)

I STILL LOVE THESE DORKS! 

SUJU M's teaser is like SO HOOOOOOT!!!

It's like Sorry Sorry times three. 

Luckily this news made me take my mind off Jay for awhile.

I go completely gaga over this video and watch it a million of times! 

They really turned into MEN! 

My eyes were set first on HANNIE.

He's the leader but he's gotten more handsome in this teaser. 

With that Chinese looks and charisma, no wonder I fell for him. 

SIWON's still the most handsome. 

I admit he really is. Those princelike looks could kill a girl!

Hahaha. HE'S 1000 times HOTTER IN THIS TEASER!!!

Well my dorky magnae KYUHYUN still the model-like! Haha.

I still loooove him. 

When did I not love him? Bwahahaha.

But the one who really caught my eye is DONGHAE!

I don't even know how I would describe him.

HOT is the most used words and he's more than that!

SIZZLING maybe? 

With those shades, he practically killed me and my friend!

I admit I never give a damn about Henry and Zhoumi but they too are okay.

Maybe I'll learn to give them a chance?

I never really support SJ's sub groups but now that I think about it, maybe I will right now.

I can't wait for the whole MV.

*watches the teaser again and again*

   

HOTTESTs CAAALM DOOOOWN!

I just checked 2ONEDAY and I saw something about HOTTEST (or in that case UNDERGROUND) boycotting 2PM shows, albums or anything 2PM-related.

My reaction: WTH!!

Okay, I admit I want Jay back but this is beyond limits! Do you think Jay would love this? Boycotting?! And for Christ's sake, the rest of the member would be disappointed as well! Even if this is after reading JYP's statement I want to join but this is way too much. I DON'T LIKE AND SUPPORT THIS AT ALL!!

Seriously, this whole thing is CRAP! I still can't believe this might happen. Think of ways that could do them, the boys and Jay better.

September 8 marks the most inevitable day for the HOTTESTS.

This is the day that our dear leadja PARK JAEBUM LEFT 2PM.

I don't know what hurts the most; the fact that he left or the fact that the antis got what they want.

I was reading something for my film subject when my friend told me that Jay actually quit! I was so shocked for i was holding on the fact that JYP won't let Jay leave 2pm. Or so he said.

So you can just imagine my shocked dumbfounded open-mouthed face when she told me. And it was confirmed by Chi when she called me during my break time. So I went to check on allkpop and 2oneday and my worst nightmare came to life. 

I really wasn't expecting that Jay would actually quit! Not even one bit. But I predicted that sooner or later he would break down from all the stress and the issues he was in. And though the members are there to support him, I know that he doesn't want the members to suffer in his actions. That's just the typical him. 

Wooyoung even made a post in his CY about staying together. But look at what he got! He got bashful comments from the lowlife antis saying that he was just covering for his member. My reaction to that was, "WTF! That's why they are called a team. What do you expect him to do? Turn away from his brother?!"

Seriously, those antis and netizens should cut him some slack! I know this is way too late to post but I don't care. Now I know why some celebrities in Korea suffer depression and commit suicide is because of those prideful people who thinks that they are perfect! He was only a trainee when he posted that. Jay came from US who experiences a different culture. You can just imagine him, alone, experiencing the hardships of being a trainee, with no one to talk to. And for one thing, why do they have to dig that deep?! It was like four years ago! 

Honestly, all of us say one bad thing about our country. I admit, I do. But heck, to make a small issue this big? I should say WHAT THE HELL!!

JUSTICE should be done. This is so not fair for Jay, for 2pm and the HOTTEST!

*updated*

Seeing this messages from Boom, Jo Kwon and Junsu just makes me so so sad.

"My heart is hurting very much

My heart feels like it’s being torn apart because he is a dongseng that I love

Because I believe and love my dongseng I believe that he will return with a better appearance

Today my heart is hurting very much

Jaebeom, hyung will work harder so that when you return I can protect and hug you with a warmer embrace

Please return healthy………

I love you……………..

- Boom -

The first song we practiced together..

We felt nervous and excited..

I always pray.

That it won't be such a hard journey..

I believe you will get stronger

because you're my brother.

- Jo Kwon -

Through the wind, fall came.

Out of nowhere, the fall scent has arrived....

The bright blue sky

It keeps making me cry.

Even the sky is making me cry 

in the fall of 2009.

- Junsu of 2pm -

These messages really are words of sadness. I know for a fact that Jay and Boom got close with each other during the Idol Army. Now, remembering those funny moments, I can't bare seeing it again knowing Jaebum has left! Leader of 2AM Kwonnie is the opposite of Jay but I believe they are close. To top that, Junsu's entry on his CY tells that they are so sad knowing that their leader left already. I heard that Wooyoung fainted at the airport. 

So now, netizens are regretting? They didn't expect that he will leave?!

Well,

IT'S TOOO LATE! JAY ALREADY LEFT! AND ALL I CAN JUST DO IS THANK YOU FOR SHOWING US WHAT YOU CAN REALLY DO! YOU JUST RUINED SOMEONE'S DREAMS!!!!!!

Who's up for another girl group?

f(x) is all you need!

DAAAMN!

These girls just makes me feel less talented. 

I mean, I can dance and all BUT I could never do that FLIP in the beginning.

I assure all of you these girls will make it on TOP!

Ever since I saw their teaser, I can just feel it!

And my eyes are drawn to A-M-B-E-R!

I think this is for now. I'll be updating about the girls on the next posts. :)

It's already a BER-month.

MERRY CHRISTMAS! :)